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Name: Karen
Country: United States
State: Maryland
Birthday: 4/26/1991
Gender: Female

Interests: i have too many interest... so i wont rite dem down :D but i luv parties!!!! an dancin w// pplz :D hehehe an if i go 2 a party an u c me all u gonna c me do is dance ma zz off!!! lolz well yeah lets c wat else i have abig intrests on guys, an shows dat make me laugh :D

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Thursday, December 22, 2005

dun listen 2 ur heart listen 2 ur mind cuz ur heart will find dat person 2 luv but ur mind wud make the decison

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!

ma 2005 year was ok in da beginin it was da BEST year eva an da middle was da bestest 2!!!!!!!!1 but den around da end of da year (now) it is bad :( sooo i am hopin dat 2006 is goin 2 b a really really gud year ...... i really hope 4 dat.... cuz diz year i wanna find ma TRUE 4ends... an REALLY gud B/F dat i cud stay 4 along time an b happy ... czu now i have realized dat a b/f is sumthin really important in ma lif... an if i had 1 dat i luved den ma lif wud b gud :D but if i didnt i wont :( but i am tryin 4get da past... u noe da BDA times an thins dat happen ....imma puit sumthin in hur lata.... i g2g iigth ... imma have a party 2day :D but it gonna b gay lolz. but yeah *peace* an take care pplz :D

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check out ma MYSPACE i finally got it so ppl can actually c it :D so enjoy ppl :D

dis is ma month or january an feburayr horoscope

Easy does it. If you're frustrated with events in your romantic past, you can make a change -- just not all at once. Trying to tackle everything in one shot is unhealthy, and likely impossible. Go slowly.
GET MORE ASTROLOGY!

FUCK ALL YALL HATERS!!!!!!!!! AN U NOE WHO U R!!!!!!!!U MYT NOT THINK I NOE BUT I DO!!!!!!!! AN I PROMISE U DIZ ... 1NCE U FUCKIN MESS W/ ME WHEN U BARELY EVEN NOE ME ULL REGRET U EVA HATED ME!!!!!!!

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It's time to downsize: Take control of your love life and strip away the nonessentials. After all, how can you welcome anything new if your mental and physical space is cluttered with junk from the past?

dat horoscope above me was da horscope for ma new year :D susie i guess u wur rite it is time 2 4get da past.....lolz....imma tyr ma beest dow but all i noe is dat aprt of me is still gonna b in da past (sigh) but imma start lookin at da future now

hey pplz well yeah 2day was a really gud day....... well in da mornin in 5th pd i got 2 gifts :D 4rm ma gurl
ANNA an LUIS
:D
well anna gave me dez green long earins which r evyr pretty w/ alil card ... an luis gave me dez hoopy earings an a card which was really funni....lozl an i gave steven

A BIGGGG KIZZZ!!!!!!!!!! :D lolz sike!!!! i gaev him diz big KISS chocolate lolz.... an i gave anna 2 snow man huggin eahc otha sayin best 4ends 4eva... an i gave sthfanie (no pic) a lil bear .well yeah in 5th pd it was fun karol will alwasy look at me lik i was crazy an anh kathleen an karol wud fight an me an luis wud jus sit der watchin dem an me an luis wud alwasy start lookin at eahc otha an start squentin out eyes 2 each otha den start crazkin ^ lolz. 6th pd was alil funni but we had a test. steven was makin me laugh alot also art an me an susie wud llaugh at evrythin dey say . an in 7th pd we had a SUB!!!!! so i was puutin ma reggeaton all loud an shyt an i was dancin alil.. an evyr1 wud ask me 4 da songs cuz i downloaded dem in ma computa in skool. an we wur havin fun an i gave out sum RESESS!!! ma bestest chosolate eva especially da white 1's lozl. an i was playin diz killin game an game dat game got all ma anger out. lunch funnnnnn.......... we wur havin fun lauhgin haevin a gud time . an den sumthin bad happen :( 2 ma dear 4end daniel :'( well dez ppl came ^ 2 him sayin dat he was talkin shyt bou sum1 1's gurl an dey want 2 jump him an i was watchin ervythin cuz i was sitin w/ danniel at lunch. an i jus felt sad czu he didnt say nuthin it was diz otha guy .. i hope dey dun do nethin 2 him :"( well yeah swn we wur tryin 2 haev a gud time which we did den poor luis had 2 sit lik 3 seats awya 4rm me cuz der wasnt a seat 4 him czu diz evil squecky voiced gurl had 2 sit in his seat. so den me an anh wur talki 2 hima nshe was reaidn da card he gave me den he said dat he 4got bout me i was lik :-o lolz. an at dat time i was werin da earins he bought me an den i was o0o so u 4got bout me . den i was atkin da earin off an den we strated lokin at eah coth abut den ta da end we wur lauhgin. den afta lunch i was chillin w/ ma 4ends in der class an ti was fun . dne i had 2 go 2 ma class. so dne 8th pd ma class is bad lik sum shyt mannnn....... lolz well yeah ma gurl natalie was gettin in a figth w/ da teacher ( u noe jus screamin) but dey scraeamed ALOT especailly ma 4end.. i was goin on her side dow so i was gettin in it 2 :D cuz out teacher she a bitch .. so when dey wur done fightin she called security an den i jus had 2 go ^ 2 natalie an guive her a HI 5 ....... LMAO!!!!! lolz . an it was funni cuz ma teahcer she was givin bak out gardes ani got a E on a test an den i got her pen an maked evyrthin look lik i got an A an it kinda worked cuz i sad 2 wesley LOOK WAT I GTO... I GOT AN A!!! an den he grabs ma paper an he made diz face when he 1st saw it me susie an anna started laughin lik shyt. den afta skool i was chillin w/ karol. den i went bak home......

well when i came home ma momz said 2 take da bus 2 wheaotn mall so me an ma sis wur walkin down da hill anervythin . den we in da mall havin a gud time an da 1st person i c is angely so we r talkin can she was buyin chritmas presnat 4 her 4ends. den we had 2 go an i saw ppl 4rm last year dat wa sin 8th grade u noe da 1's i had ma eyes on lolz (wink) it funni cuz in 7th grade der was sum fine azz ppl in 8th grade an ma 4ends wud b sayin KAREN U CHAGE UR MIND 2 MUCH!!! U LIK 1 8TH GRADER 4 A WEEK DEN U LIK ANOTHA lolz an all i cud is is damn :D cuz dat was true but den 1 day i saw diz 8th grader an i saw sumthin in him an i like dhim 4 awhiel. an who new i was ognna b w/ him an he was gonna b sum1 special in ma lif. an ma 4ends wur lik :-o bczu i stopped likin oht a8th graders an had ma eye on him. (sigh) but yeah jus nwated 2 say a funni story. gud times gud times. well den i was chillin w/ dez guys an dey wur sooooooo funni cuz dem an ma sis new diz guy named KOOLAID (yes i noe weird name) lolz an den 1 of den said u noe wat i think koolaid shud do i think he shud jus pop in classes an say O0O YEAHHH!!!! an me an ma sis started crackin ^ lik nethin. an evyrthin dey wud say wud b funni an anotha thin dey said was lik "u shud go 2 VICTORS SECRET an me an ma sis smiled an he was lik 4real c'mon gurls got VICTORIA SECERT an guys got VICTORS SECRET lolz man it sound gay how i am sayin it but if u wur der u wud have been lauhgin. den when we wur still w/ dem sum1 garbs ma arm an i look who it is an it is ma gurl SHELBY!!!!!! lozl yeah an we said hey man i have seen her since ma b day party . an she looks differnt. qwell yeah den ma momz came an went 2 get sumthin 2 eat in da mall den we r goin 2 CHAMPS an den i am walkin den i am llokin 4 ppl i noe den i c sum1 pass me an i was lik man dat gurl look lik vicky an den i was lik h/o aint dat her ( i was talkin in ma head) Image hosted by Photobucket.com an den i hear da gurl i saw say KAREN!! an den i trun aound an ( i felt stupid at dat time ) so den i said VICKY!! lozl an den we said hey an gave eah cotha a hug an ervythin an den we had 2 go . btu yeah dat was am 1st time seein her in person lolz. czu i meat her ma javier cuz he introduce me 2 her online in a chat room an den we bcame 4ends. well yeah den i had 2 go an den i went 2 get da PARIS HILTON perfume it smells guuuuddddd . lozl yeah dat was ma day

yup dat b pics of wat i gto 4 christmas :D well i gto da candy candes 4rm anh an kathleen . i gto da bear w/ da presnat 4rm angely an i got da coca cola bear 4rm sthefanie w/ da earins( da earins in da middle) an 4rm anna i gto dows long azz earins lolz. i still lik dem . an i got da hoopy earins 4rm luis.

dez wir da cards i gto da 1 on da left was 4rm luis an da 1 on da rite was 4rm anna :D

LMAO!!!!!!! remeba dat pic alejandra :D i noe u hate it :D yeha i haev 2 rite diz ..... I FEEL SOOOOO HAPPY 4 U ALEJNDRA!!!!!!!! AN ADRIEL!!!!!!!! i am glad yall got bak 2getha i guess yall r meant 2 b ...... i hope yall stay 2getha 4 eva an nuthin bad happens 2 yall..... an if yall gto ne problems yall cud talk 2 me cuz i dun want both of ma gudest 4ends who helped me alot in lif 2 get as badly as hurt as i did......

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dats y i am helpful 2 eveyr bout luv now . u da pic of spongebob an patrick (in da bottom) rmeinds me of me an alejandra 4 sum WEIRD reason lolz. look at the link i put ^ der . dat was da entyr i wrote da 1st time me an javier saw eahc othan an da 1st time we kizzed (sigh)...... well all i am sayin is dat i hope yall get 2 b 2getha 4 along time

look wat ma horoscope said .........

You've got that lovin' itch, but you may not have anyone to scratch it. Whatever you do, don't settle. Keep your standards high, and your patience long. The right one is out there.
GET MORE ASTROLOGY!

yup when ma 4ends saw dat dey wur lik follow wat it said. an ma science teacher he was talkin an den he asked da class (he is random) wat wud u listen 2 ur heart or mind?? an isaid heart an den he said dun listen 2 ur heart cuz c ur heart wud lead u 2 da u luv or lik but ur mind has 2 make da choices so ur heart can find dat person. i was lik :-o dat is true lolz. finally ma teahcer is useful in lif lolz.

Acércate...
Te diré que...
Nadie te va a tocar como yo
Nadie te lo va a hacer como yo
Acércate...
Te diré que...
Nadie te va a tocar como yo
Nadie te lo va a hacer como yo
Decídete ya cuando será
Que tu boca tocara mi boca
So, dime ya que tú me das
Quiero sentirte, besarte
Mi lengua pasarte
Y vas a sentirte bien
Vamos a pasarla bien
Tu no vez que estoy sufriendo
Y pasando el tiempo sin comerte

man yo NOCHE DE SEXO is ma songg..... if u wanna hear go 2 ma playlist an play da song. da words u c in italics an underlined dats da part of da song dat relates 2 me :D u can ask ne of ma 4ends dey wud agree w/ me 2 :D cuz when im in a relationsip i lik kizzin :D u cna ask javier lolz. well yeah i luv dat song . i downlaoded it 2 ma computa in skool . u noe since dey took of xnaga an myspce of da internet

(as u can i c i didnt saw bestest days cuz sum1 took dows days away 4rm :-/ ) MERRY CHIRTMAS EVYR1 !!!!!!!!!!!!! *peace* take care pplz ~karensita~

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Friday, December 16, 2005

hey pplz havent wrote in diz in awhiel. im mostly on myspace now. an xnaga it has 2 much memories an it hurts u noe. well yeah as i was sayin I MADE DA BSKETBAL TEAM!!!!!! its funni cuz der not alot of spanish gurls in der u noe lolz. yeha im soo happy bcuz of dat u noe. so yeah 2day was an ok day . i mean it wanst da best butit was iigh. well ma gurl sthfanie didnt usm 1 day so i was alone on da bus w/ diz anooyin guy next 2 me lolz. well lunch was fun . cuz we wur havin a gud time an den me kathleen an anh wanted ma 4end 2 b 4ends w/ diz new philpeno boi ( he has a nice smile :D ) an yeah cuz dey look lik dey wud b gud 4ends . so we go ^ 2 d aphilpeno his name is clairence ( it hink dat how u spell it) an we amde dme sit next 2 eaqhc otha na it was funni cuz it was lik we wur tryin 2 hook dem ^ 2getha. an da 1st thin i said was soooo im jus sayin yall aint gay i jsu nwat yall2 b 4ends :D lozl. well yeah den i went ^ stirs 2 chill w/ ma pplz an i go in 1 of ma 4ends class 2 chill an she was scremain at me 2 get out an i was scareamin at her sayin IM GOIN IM GOIN DAMN!!!!! an iw as sytill atlkin 2 ma 4edsn while i was walkin out lolz. in 8th d i was botherin susie ana an wesley lolz. well afta skool iw as walkin w/ karoline an den i wnet on ma bus an we had da 2 hewwit ave buses IN 1 BUS!! :-O an i sat in da bak an it was packeddddd but i got 2 chill w/ daniel diz 7th grader guy an jonthan. we wur havina gud time but ti was sooo crowded. but fun an i talk 2 sthefanie on da phone. an i was lookin at daniels an da 7th graders ID an dey lost sooo much weigth 4rm b4 i was lik damnnnn. den it was funni cuz when ppl got off da 1st bus stop i had 2 stand ^ an it was sooo crowded dat i almost sat on sum1 face lolz. well den i went hom an went online. an den daniel called me an wat we talked buto was soo stupid. an he was askin who i liekd an shyt lik dat an he was botherin me oof dat da whole damn time we wur talkin. an all we wur talkin botu was lik who liks who , who i lik an nehtin an i told him i think der no point of likin or luvin ppl an he started crackin his ass off lik nethin. but damn we talked long. i think he wasted ma mintues. cuz 1st he told me he had sprint dmn hesaid t mobil . so i dunno . but yeah den i saw HOUSE OF WAX dat movie is sooooooo tyt. den i went online ab talke dw/ alejandra . thanks alejandra 4 helpin. well i guess dats it. an i got da DADDY YANKEE cd u noe da 1 dat came out w/ da dvd it soo tyt. an i luvvv da song ROMPE its so kool an makes u wana jus move :D

hey pplz well diz part of ma entry is goin 2 b my far well letter. well diz is goin 2 b da last time i am goin 2 talk bout javier (ma ex) i myt include alil bit of him afta diz entyr but not as much as i use 2. an if yall sayin FINALY or sum shyt lik dat f*** u . ok? cuz yall jus selfish an mean an u dun care of how i feel an if u ma 4end dats not wat a 4end shud act lik an if u aint den damn i dun even noe u an u alreayd mean 2 me (gosh ) lolz . but neways yeah if yall c in da bottom der is dat pic of me of javier :'( im sry if i am puttin diz pic again im not prest bout it or nethin ti jus dat its means alot 2 me u noe cuz dat was da ONLY pic i acuslly took w/ him :'( an dat was da last day we wur actually 2getha. an it was a great day..... an dat was da day i actually thught dat day dat he was "the 1" 4 me an i really luved him . but i guess we wurnt by da next day (tears) i think dats y i hurt so much bczu i luved him so much dat day den da next day ervythin jsu fell apart :'( when eva i look at da moon or stars at nite da 1st person dat cums 2 mind is him . an i feel hurt inside cuz we aint 2gtah nemore. dman i always said 2 maslef neva cry 4 a guy but now i am.... an i noe i shudnt. its hard 2 let go da 1 u 1nce luved noein dat yall will neva b da same as yall use 2 b. an it hurts cuz at times i wanna jus tell him i still gto ma dluv 4 him an he is evyrthin 2 me an b dat 4end he neva had but on ma otha side i jus wanna say i hate him sooo much bcuz he made ma lif so bad an pretend we neva wnet out or he even excisted.... but i dunno whic side 2 chose cuz in sum way i get hurt both ways an i dun lik gettin hurt nemroe. now i am scared 2 luv or lik ne1 cuz i dun wanna get as bad as he hurt me. i still got luv 4 him u noe but it hard cuz he dun an he probly has it 4 sum1 else. he was veyr special 2 me he was lik no otha guy . he treated me lik no1 eva treated me b4. how much i wish all of diz was a bad dream an dat i am still sleepin an im still w/ him. i still rememba da 1st time i eva saw him ... ma 4ends dey will alwasy drag me 2 go a curtain way 2 1 of ma classes an den dats when i saw him in da halls an 4 sum reaosn when i looked at him i saw sumthin i neva saw in no1 else. an rememba da 1st hug i gave him (sigh) afta lunch i luved chillin in g hall so i was der so den i saw him an ma gurl karol told me 2 say hi an so i went bhind him an covered his eyes an den he took ma hands off of his face an i said hi an den we talkin alil bit den he gave me diz cd an i was thank u so dats when i gave him a hug. an den ma 4ends saw an den ma 4ends went crazy lolz. man dows wur sum gud times. man writin diz thin makes me sad i dunno y but it does. i guess 1nce in our lif me an javier wur meant 2 b an meant evyrthin 2 eahc otha but den i guess lata on it changed an we wur jus meant 2 b 4ends lik he said so . but it looks lik now we aint cuz we barely talk or nethin an if we do in sum way i get hurt. at times i think i shudnt b his 4end an jus remove him 4rm ma lif ... but i cant cuz ill mizz him alot an regret dat . so dats y i am so confused of wat 2 do cuz it is ez 2 say ur goin 2 do sumthin but its hard 2 actually do it. an sum1 told me dat he has changed :'( an dat was da fear i had when we broek ^ i dun want him2 change . i liked da old him cuz dat was da him i luved. an seein dat jus go away hurts. an ima give yal sum advice if u b readin diz ....... da sooner u say I LUV U in a relationship da more u get hurt cuz luv is a word dat cant b played cuz if u play it in da wrong way u wud get hurt ... an also the more an more days ur w/ ur guy/gurl an yall "luv" eahc otha da more an more u gonna get hurt an gonna b harder 2 let of of him/her IF yall break ^ . but im glad dat javier was ma 1st luv but da pain he left inside of me when he broke ^ w/ me will neva b gone. he didnt hw much it hurt me. its lik he got ma heart an riped it w/ no care wat i felt an i trsuted him w/ ma heart when i gave it 2 him an he gave his 2 me an im hur still w/ his heart w/ nuthin bad happen 2 it. sumtimes now i cry maself 2 sleep. cuz i think of all dows times we said 2eahc otha we wud neva make eahc otha cry or hurt dem an we wud b w/ eahc 4 eva. an all dows fantasies an future stories we told eahc otha of how we wud b 2getha in da future w/ our fmaily an kids. an i still got da mail he use 2 send me . whn i look bak at dat tears cum outta my eye. i wud mizz how he wud call me MI VIDA an i wud call him MI AMOR... but i guess evyrthin has a reason dat sumtimes we can figure out. i noe dat sounds gay an shyt but its true an i noe it kinda took me along time 2 figure dat out an actually undastand it welll yeha i noe at times ajveir u get anooyed of all diz an im sryuy bcuz of dat cuz i still got mad luv 4 u . u noe an whne u broke ^ w/ me i was so confused an i am still . jus thinkin of all dows times we had 2getha hurts cuz i dun even noe if u luved me lik u said u did. i iwsh i cud b w/ u again or veen talk w/ u or c u . da scar u left in ma heart is always gonna b der an YOU will always b in ma heart cuz u wur ma 1st luv an ma 1st b/f an da person igavew ma 1st kizz 2 an da sam w/ u . so u wur really special 2 me an if 1 day we cum across eahc otha i hope well wud b lik we use 2. u have brung me feelins i have neva felt w/ ne1 else. an now when i relive all dows times we wur 2getha i get dat feelin an it makes me smile but it hurts dat i wont feel dat feelin lik i did w/ u . i wud luv 2 tell u verythin of how i feel but im scared of wat u will say an i wud gget hurt again. an i dunno noe when we wur 2etha if u REALLY LUVED ME lik i did w/ u or u jus really liked me. u wur evrythin 2 me i wanna b w/ u again lik we use 2 anevyrtime i talkw/ u i think of da times we use 2 say i luv u an evyrthin 2 eahc otha an it makes em cry. when eva i listen 2 aventura or dona omar i get sad an i thnk of u cuz dey remind me of u an me czu we dedciated songs 4rm dem 2 eahc otha an dat was lik our "group" an i jus am nuthin w/ out u . an i jus talked w/ u an it seemed like u have changed :'( an now i am startin not 2 lik it :( an it does hurt 4 me 2 say dat ...... if u only new da poistion u made me b in u wud now how hurt i am ..i ncat get u outta ma head sumtimes an now i regret all dows tiimes i fell aslepep on u or nethin i did badi feel now dat u dun care4 me nuthin at all an u think i was jus sum otha person. jus thinkin bout all dows times we had 2gethah jus makes me cry lik nethin especially when i hear SI LA VEZ 4rm rakim y ken y w/ don omar cuz dat was OUR song. but iguess i cant change nethin... but if 1 day in da futre we cum across eahc otha again an b 2getha again i wud b happy cuz i got 2 b w/ ma 1st luv again. but i guess if i dun i wud probly find sum1 else but i wud still mizz him even if im w/ anotha guy ... but i wonder wud he??. u noe i regret thinkin he didint luv me da way i luved him when we wur 2getha :'( cuz c now dat i think bout it he did luv me ALOT lik i didan now i REALLY really do regret it an i wish i cud jus hear him again sayin i luv u 2 me an i wud say it bak an us both meanin it (sigh) :"(g2g i sumthin else 2 write but ill write it lata

igith pplz an do yall wanna noe sumthin 2day (12-17-05) it cud have been our 6 months 2getha an i had sumthin planned but now i guess dat plan is ova cuz we aint 2getha nemroe :'( AN ALSO IF U WANNA C HOW MUCH I LUVED HIM CHECK MA NEXT 5 PAGES IN DA BOTTOM BUTTON AN ULL C HOW MUCH I LUVED HIM AN C HOW MUCH HE DID W/ ME WHEN YALL GO 2 HIS PAGE *peace* take care pplz ~karensita~

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we wur so in LUV . we cod talk bout nething.we'd be on the phone for hours,until ur mom made u hang up and go to sleep or wait till i wanted 2 go 2 sleep. we'd make up stupid jokes,an laugh for hours. we'd sing along w/ the radio like there was no tomorrow. we'd argue over who loved each other more, && of course,you'd always let me win. we always had fun, no matta who we wur w/. we wur "the perfect couple" an i loved every minute of it.

the other day,ma 4rnd said "how come u dun do nething w/ ur life nemore? u used to always be smilin an laughin every other day" i just looked at her w/ teary eyes memberin our past and said "yeah, until he broke ^ w/ me . he was my life."

well da songs dat r wat i am feelin an i listen 2 it 4rm CHAYANN "y tu te vas" an also da song dat is playin rite now 4rm AVENTURA "Ensaname A Olvida" an da lyrics u c on da top dat also is how i feel which is 4rm DON OMAR "Aunque Te Fuiste" ... an if der is more ill put dme in hur

goodbye is the hardest thing to sayy . because you walk away with only memories ' & memories; well .. they fade away

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Thursday, December 01, 2005

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hey pplz havent wrote in awhiel...... u noe well yeah eveyrthin b gettin alil betta 4rm time 2 time.well 2day was a really really fun day i mean FUN . i needed a day lik diz lolz well yeah i especialy liked 7th pd an lunch. cuz c we r doin secret santa an da ppl who r doin it is kathleeen karol anh luis steven art daniel chris tin susie nilton an ME!!!! . yup an we wur lik all crazy an evyrthin an it was funni czu i want 2 get a guy so i cud give dem a chritmas presnat an i said out loud 2 dem i am goin 2 give da a condom! :D an den all of da guys jsu said yessss thank u finally sum1 who undastands an steven he gets ^ an hugs me lolz an den me an luis an akthleen an especailly steven lauhged alot c diz is how we wur sittin . i was sittin next 2 steven he wa son ma left an lourdes on ma rite an next 2 her was karol infront of karol was rebbec an next 2 rebeca was anh an netx 2 anh was akthlenn an kathleen was infront of me an luis was next 2 her (diagnol 4rm me ) an art was next 2 stevenan daniel was next 2 art an chris an tin wur sitin sum else. yup fun time but around da end it wa sali sad 4 me :( i am gonna tyr out 4 basketball :D (hopefully dat makes me happy) well yeah sum of ma 4ends ognna b tyrin out 2 . an da damn skool changed da tyrout days . now its NEXT damn wendsday (gosh) teachers dez days lolz. well yeah well ma week has been gud an bad. for da past 2 days i had a new bus driver an each diferent bus driver dorve anotha way an dey all past all dows places i was w/ ma ex :'( it hurt so much (lil evil bus drivin basterds) yup well dat was ma gud part .(now imma talk bout wat i alwasy talk bout) wlel yeah sumdays in diz week i felt really sad cuz of ma ex :'( its hard cuz he mite b w/ sum otha gurl now an i noe he wud probly 4get all bout me :( i noe he alreayd moved on but c i didnt an its hard 4 me 2 cuz da feelins i had 4 him wur big an gud an even when he jus came on or he said hi or was ^ 2 me i wud jus smile even if it was on da phone at nite (sigh) or online. i really luved him alot an i new he did 2 but i dunno wat happen . well atealst i noe da HOLE truth (well i hope it is da truth) czu if i didnt noe da truth der wud b still ?'s in ma head . der still kinda sum but it aint lik hwo i had it in da beginin . i mean der was ALTO in da begin it was lik WOAH!!!! BAM!!!1 SHABA!!! lolz well yeah well when eva i am sad i alwasy think of all da positives i cnat say dem here but i wud b sayin 2 much. but.........

i wud still have dows memeories i had w/ him which wur da best!!! especially in ma lif. i still rememba our 1st kiss

it was in a REGAL BASEMENT STAIR WAY lolz yeah i neo weird but 4 me it was romantic (excpet for da ugly not even white walls lozl) an i rememba he told me he cudnt eat cuz he was htinkin buot da kiss an also we didnt noe if we did it rite. LMAO!!!!! yeah an i still got more but dat was 1 of best memories i had an dey will always b in heart. man jsu thinkin bout dem makes me smile :D an makes me sad

czu i wont b abel 2 feel dat way again especially w/ da 1 i luved but c i have 2 b happy dat i have experienced ma 1st luv ma 1st kiss an 1st boi especially w/ a gud guy an not 1 of dem bad guys ...... but yeah illl relly mizz him an i noe it wud hurt ALOT when he gets w/ a gurl i mean REALLY hurt but i haev 2 b happy 4 him cuz i noe if u ahd anotha boi he wud b happy 4 him (wlel he betta b lozl) well i rely hope me an him wud b really gud 4ends now an in da futrue. cuz my relationship w/ him is veyr important 2 me . rite now i am really mizzin him an im kinda cryin czu i noe rite now he probly aint :( i really wanna b w/ him again but i noeo der aint no chance or probly no hopw in da future :'( 1 side of me jus sayin 4 me 2 4get bout him jus b his 4end an find sum1 else but in da otha side of me is jsu cryin wantin him 2 cum bak. an dats me eveyrday.

at timees i ncat stop thinkin bout him but when i think buot him i turn sad. it hurt soooooo much dat da day we wur 2getha (da last day halloween) dats when i realized dta i really luved him ALOT i mena dats hwen i was thinkin if we wur gonna last 4eva lik he use2 say but den day next day he breaks ^ w/ me an dat really broke ma heart. an it hurt dat dat was probly da last time we wur gonna EVA hang out . sumtimes i cry at nite not abel 2 sleep only thinkin botu him an how rite now he is talkin 2 his futruw g/f or sumthin an dat hurts . i noe its pethetic but i jus wanna hoel him in ma arms again talk lik we use 2 kiss each otha lik we use 2 an noein dat he luvs me da same way as i do :'( i wonder if at times he thinks of me lik i htink of him an i wonder at times does he mizz me but doesnt say a word

. i jus hope in da future i will find sum guy lik javier or i wud b w/ javier . but i am thinkin dat der is no chance cuz i takled 2 him an it seems lik dat wat he said. he didnt say dows exact words but i noe he meant dem :'( i mizz him alot an i noe he wud neva not b in ma heart. i talked 2 him an i foudn out dat i wud always b in his heart an i was really his 1st luv. i am jus gonna mizz how we hung out 2getha how we laughed an smiled. an i didnt tell him diz but when i was w/ him at times i cud c him 4rm da corner of ma eye dat he was lookin at me jus lookin at me an havin a lil smile on his face an i wud jus smile a big smile an look sumwur else cuz i was shy 2 look at him dat way. i dunno y dow but i luved dta. i am really gonan miz how we use 2 hold hands an kiss. man da kisses we gave eahc otha was so great czu he noes dat when we kiss i lik it czu dats da only way i cud show how mcuh i luv him by doin dat. (sigh) i am gona really mizz him dat dow. but i dat decision he made was da nets i guess b 4 both of us but i hoe we can sty 4ends lik he wanted us 2 . i jus wanna talk w/ him on da phone an chill w/ him even if we r jsu 4ends . i dunno wats w/ me rit enow im cryin cuz i noe he gonan get a gurl soon an hes gona treat her lik her did 2 me an dat hurts czu its lik he is jus gonna 4get bout me :"( i dunno how he cud have 4gotten bout me . cuz i still haevnt 4gotten him. ani dunno wat i shud feel or think. evyrthin so confusin . i wish i cud jus b his really gud 4end u noe . evyr song we dedciated 2 eah cotha evyr song we heard when i hear dat song now i jus cry cuz i wud rmemab all dows times we had 2getha an when we kissed we held hands an evyrthin an dat wont happen again. but yeah ur not hearin diz 4rm me lolz wel on halloween when me an javier wur "doin thins" i opened ma eyes bcuz i heard sumthin am we wur still "doin thins" an ma eyes r lik wonderin eveyrwur dne i look at his eyes an his eyes r closed an 4 sum weird reaosn dat made me crack ^ lik nethin . i dunno if he felt it but i started smilin an started 2 laugh alil. but i dunno y i didnt tell him but yeah dat was funni ........

an he is an always will b dat sum1

special in

ma lif an he wud b dat guy i wud

alwasy compare 2 .......an

say 2 ne1 dat ..... 1nce in ma lif him an

i wur madly in

LUV w/ eahc otha.

so yeah i gues dats it i g2g now an yeah ill try ma best 2 smile 2day. imma put lil icons lata . DANG MAN I WROTE ALOT !!! lolz *peace* take care ~karensita~

.but if u guys have time look ^ 4 diz song its 4rm los Adolescentes - Me Tengo Que Ir dats ma joint rite der an its salsa. czu dats how i feel i luv dat song an Verme i 4ogt who sings it dow an Si La Ves 4rm RaKin y Ken Y also mejor olvidalo umm i think zion sings it an last doz locos 4rm mochy y aexandra o0o yeah an Aunque Te Fuiste 4rm Dom Omar ....... yup an look at dez quotes dey reflect upon me

"Salí de un hospital del extrania enfermida mi corazón esta muerendo de la pena y dolió porque no tiene tuy amor"

"Love is when you shed a tear and still want him.. It's when he ignores you and you still can't stop thinking about him.It's when he loves another girl, but you still smile and say you're happy for him . Love is when you want to let him go , but no matter what, that boy is the only thing on your mind."

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Wednesday, November 23, 2005

hey pplz havetn wrote in diz thin 4 along time again :D well yeha an it gonna b lik ma otha entries 2. so yeah lif been iight at times it was fun lik shyt an times wur i cud b jus happy an normal but still alil sad . i noe it wud take me along time not 2 feel sad nemore but c it jus bcuz he didnt noe how much he hurt me. i was really in luv w/ him he was evyrthin 2 me an evyr feelin i had of him was sumthin i wud neva 4get. yall noe wat im talkin bout it lik when u really luv sum1 an u dun care wat ppl think u jus care dat ur w/ da perosn u luv an dey luv u bak an hope nuthin goes bad.... ma feelins was so strong 4 him ... nuthin cud make me not wanna b w/ him nemore..... but c all i think bout an dream bout is dat he luvs me da same way i luv him. luv is impotant in ma lif (u cud ask ne of ma 4ends )an seein da 1 person i luv go away 4rm ma heart its lik im nuthin. at nite i mizz him da most ... all i thikn bout is how much we luved each otha an now dat wur not even 2getah an we dun talk dat much. i cud neva stop thinkin bout him an i noe he neos dat an i am nto ashamed ....

an if 1 day he finds anotha gurl imma b happy 4 him cuz he found sum1 he wud luv more den he did 2 me an b more happier. i noe i wud b really sad but i gotta b happy. an thasnk 2 all ma 4ends cuz dey helped me out but at times dey wud tlel me jus 2 move on or move on cuz he alreayd probly did ... an i wud think i wud not move on if ma feelisn 4 him r still strong an if he moved on it dun matta ma feelsin will always b der. but da thin dat hurts me da most is noein da 1 u luved doesnt luv u da same was as u do 2 dem an noein dat all dows feelsin he made u feel jus went away an cudnt feel dem no more unless u wur w/ dem..... an dat all dows doors he opened in ur lif jus suddenly closed leavin u nuthin but hurt feelins. but if ur reaidn diz (o0o yeha imma say it agin :D ) ill always luv u in ma heart even if in da future wur w/ sum otha ppl. 4 the past 4 months we've been 2getha ive been so happy u made me feel dez feelins i neva felt b4 an ill alwasy charish u even 4rm afar . an i noe dat u mite not feel da same way its ok i wud neva pressure u 2 do sumthin w/ ur feelins. jus tell me wat i shud do w/ diz deciasion uve gave me so i wudnt sufer every day cuz evyrday i wait ma heart get broken wroser an worser . i really mizz u alot u cud ask nebody i do. an jus lookin bak in dows days we wur 2gteah it makes me cry cuz i aint gonna b lik dat nemroe an i aint gonna feel dwos feelsin u made me feel an ma feleisn 4 u cud go on an on jus remeba u wur da 1 i luved an u r very special 2 me. well yeah pplz dats all i haev 2 say o0o yeah by all dez entries ive writin dat person i write bout i am not sayin nethin bad bout him cuz i cud neva do dat so if ur reaidn diz agian i wud an will neva say nethin bad bout u cuz i respect u an u wur sum1 special 2 me an ma lif an i cnat b mean or sumthin 2 negative 2 sum1 who i really luved in ma lif..... well i g2g iitg pplz have a nice lif pplz an i hope erythin goes gud in yalls lif. an dont get mad or sad of da littlest thins in lif bcuz sum ppl have it worse well *peace* take an bye

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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

hey pplz havent wrote in along time. but i am now so yeah evyrthin been alil bit betta bcuz now i noe da truth of sumthin ( i dun wanna say it cuz i dun want dat person 2 feel lik he bad or sumthin bcuz he aint) an i got all ma feelins outta ma chest which is gud cuz now i cud actually breath. :D an 2 da ppl readin diz an get tired if i b writin bout sumwat of da same thin eahc time jsu think if u wur really ma 4end u wud noe how i feel an wat if u wur in ma poistion an had a xanga 2 write all ur feelins in :D lolz. yeah well lidia dun b sorry 4 wta u did i jus got lil mad cuz u took it alil 2 far but i dun blame u .an again i lik 2 thank everybody who stud by me in a time lik diz i really appreicate it. u guys wru rite i cnat asy wat u guys wur rite on bcuz i wud feel lik i wud b sayin 2 much but thanks.

yeah well i guess diz is lif. i neva new i wud b experiencein diz feelins i had in me an da 1 i use 2 have . but i atleast have 2 happy dat i have experience sum of dez gud feelins w/ sum1 special cuz sum ppl in lif dun experience it at all. lik sum1 i noe said thins happen 4 a reaosn an dey r rite an dey wur rite cuz dey told me dat he made dat decidion cuz he thougth it was 4 da best an i guess it is. an all i sayin in ma entry 2day is dat i shud b happy of choices ppl make 4 me in lif an not b all down an in sorrow czu lif will go on its not always gona b da way u want but it gonna happen an u jus gotta live threw it an 1day all diz sadness dat u had sumthin will always cum out of da gud of it an 2 sum1 ( u noe who u r an i bet u ppl do 2 lolz ) if ur readin diz ur always b in ma heart even if wur apart an i guess da decision u chose was da best 4 me an u an thasnk 4 makin me c it. ull always b in ma heart an sum1 special in ma lif. an 2 ma 4ends THANKS ALOT ull always b in ma 4endly heart of mine :D

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